Fear ,

Darkness and fear was all I left in this house . 

There was never love , there was never warmth , I should have expected that long ago .

What made me believe naively that everything will be alright . 

What made me assume that I would be strong enough to take this on my own .

Now I feel so alone , lost and broken in this battlefield , against those whom supposedly my only kin . 

To a stage that I no longer have the ability to put my feelings into words , no longer wanna talk about it . 

I hate this , I hate me .

All I ever beg was to be free from this , from this so called family . 

Who else but myself would be able to save myself from this agony .

I can't take this anymore ..