Cause I know no matter how hard I try to run away , It will still haunt me down.

You know what , It's only been 3days that you are here , and you brought back every single fucking thing that I hate , that fuck up life .

Nb , it's always you , always you and her . 

I hate being trapped in a room with you , I hate the smell of your cigarettes that lingers in the room since I ever understand what the fuck is smoking , what the fuck is cigarettes .

I hate whenever you just pack up and leave and expect me to leave a place in my heart for you . To welcome you back into my life with welcoming words .

I hate it when you did nothing and you assume you did every fucking thing .

I hate it when you just listen to yourself and shuts every fucking person out .

I hate it when you decided to be stubborn and always making mistake , leaving the consequences to me and mom . 

I hate it that it only occurs to you that you have a wife , and daughters only when you needed help .

I hate every fucking thing about you, even tho it's all your credit for the creation of me .

Thanks for creating me , let me have a taste of a fucked up life . 

The past 18yrs , I had enough .

If you were to chase me out , then so be it . 

Even tho you did not raise me , missing for the past 18yrs , maybe you still thought you have the authority to chase me out , then so be it .

Whatever , you know what . Why not just fuck off , both of us . Out of each other's life . 

I will be fucking grateful .