I know probably I shouldnt even start this. Probably would never end. There's so much on my mind. People can't choose their family, people suffer way worst than you. I get it. I really do. But it's so tiring over the years it wears me out. I no lobger have the ability to be pretentious and ignorance to all this.
It's not my call. It never was.
To you, I'm not worth at all. I never was. I can never be like her, I can't be as hardworking. As thrifty as her. I know all these while, both of you fight for her. That look you've got when you told me you probably stuck with me and not sis. That disappointment you've got there. I've remain silence all these while. I choose not to, I have no say don't you realize.
It's not easy being me too.
Maybe it's even too much to ask for a normal family.
Even happiness, seen too mug to ask for.
What more can I say.

I've had enough. All these years, I've broke down too often. Now it should end.

Sudden urge to blog.

Im pretty sure nobody reads this little place anymore, but right now I just have this urge to blog.

In life, I always live by the code of being happy, enjoying my days.

I can say I'm pretty happy with the way things are right now.

But how do we survive without money :(

Gosh, part of me just wanna slap myself out of this feeling miserable for my pathetic life moment .

Suckzzzzzzz. 

I need to be happy, I need to ensure myself that things will be alright pretty soon.

It will be the last and final 2 or 3 years top that I will not be relying on my parents. 

Soon, I will be able to feed myself with my own money.

I will be, soon. 

You gotta cheer up Michelle. :) 

You're my infinity

You got me fighting for our love , 

Why are you doing this ?

You know how it feels like to put someone as your top priority when you're only their option ? 

I choose to believe that you're way too busy with school and work that's why you don't have time for us.

But this is getting out of hand , we both misses you . Misses the times and all the fun we had . 

Honestly , we ain't even sure that you do miss us anymore :(

We always make sure that we are there for you , and your dramas . 

It's time to decide who you really want , ain't you tired ? Of all those unnecessary dramas you created for yourself?

Ain't you sick of it already ? Cause obviously we do , we told you , we advice you .

We did everything we can , we don't wanna see you hurt . 

Sigh , I hope you won't regret when you look around and find us gone one day .

Cause we will be , sooner or later .